I just realized it has been three months since my last blog. And it was the week of Residency, which is this week as well. What are the odds…Perhaps my quantitative friends can help figure that one out.
I had my chemo and XGeva this morning. My nurse was rushing like a bandit because she knew I was hoping to get out early. I got in early, about 30 minutes. That’s usually unheard of. Unfortunately we can’t rush the chemo. Drip, drip, drip. It takes at least an hour regardless of how much we try to force it. Then there is the preparation, and the flush in between, and after, and the Heparin. All in all, it takes a solid 90 minutes even if the stars align.
I’m sitting at Panera waiting for my hubby to join me. I was rushing to get out of chemo because he had a doctor’s appointment, and I wanted to be there. My nurse could sense the urgency, as I don’t usually ask them to hurry up. This is not your usual, ho-hum, mundane visit to the doctor. He’s been having symptoms. Headaches and such. His doctor ordered a brain scan. They found “something.” Today’s visit with the neurologist would help determine what they found. Unfortunately, he made it to the doctor before my last drip, so I’m waiting for him to tell me the results.
It’s always hard to wait for results from a scan, test, or other medical procedure, but I have learned how to be patient during the waiting. Endurance produces character (Romans 5:4). Last week I had a moment. Sometimes we joke about death – it may sound morbid but it’s our way of dealing with life with cancer. In the midst of laughing I had a sad thought. If something happened to him, who will take care of me? Shake it off…it was only a momentary lapse from the usual positivity we embrace.
He’s here…………….
Praise God my hubby came bearing good news! The spots on the brain scan, which were confirmed by the neurologist, are like age spots on your skin. (Ha! Despite his boyish face and blond hair, I knew he was aging.) The doc says there is no concern. They ruled out all the biggies like MS, stroke, blockage, etc. In fact, it is likely the headaches created the spots. (I didn’t know headaches could do that.) He does have some stress in his life, as any caregiver can relate, which may be contributing to the symptoms. The doctor recommended watching his cholesterol and blood pressure. Tim told me this as he was salting his apple.
Basically, the doctor ordered my hubby to de-stress and decompress. Sounds like it is time for another ride.
À la prochaine…until next time.