I recall the first time I had an MRI of the brain. It was after my original diagnosis of Stage IV Metastatic Breast Cancer when the bone scan determined I had mets (metastasis) in my skull. I was scared to death. Anxiety flowed through my body like the mighty Mississippi after a torrential storm. I was relieved when no brain mets were found with that first scan.
A year later, they found two tiny spots. The docs are watching them closely, and at this point they are not concerned. Three weeks later the spots had not changed, grown, or multiplied. The mets was “stable,” and the lesions were so tiny they could not even triangulate them to do radiation. The assumption is always cancer when you have Stage IV metastatic breast cancer. So, we just keep watching.
So this past week I went in for my MRI expecting to get in a good nap. I have learned not to worry or get upset — unless they have to poke and prod more than three times to find a good vein. Three veins were blown at the last appointment. Ouch! That did bring tears to my eyes, but the tech was so sweet and did his best to comfort me. Chemo on the previous day may have contributed to the evasive veins. Must remember to schedule those further apart…
But the good news is – everything is still stable. I have no additional lesions, and the tiny spots have not increased in size. Also, my sinusitis is gone. (The last time I went in I had a bad cold which seemed to last forever. I am so thankful I can breathe again!)
So…we continue to pray and watch. Watch and pray. No matter what, I trust in the Lord. That is relatively easy to say when things are going well, but it takes a great amount of faith to trust Him even when it isn’t. The verse of the day today spoke to this clearly.
Yes, God’s riches are very great, and his wisdom and knowledge have no end! No one can explain the things God decides or understand his ways (Romans 11:33 NCV).
Why even try? His understanding is limitless. Mine is not. All we can do is trust in his infinite wisdom and knowledge, regardless of the decisions He makes in our lives. Are you trusting Him with your situation regardless of the outcome? Feel free to comment below.
Á la prochaine…until next time.