Book Review – The Walk Series

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A couple of months ago I posted about The Walk, a novel I read for my book club by Richard Paul Evans. Tim and I read the book together on a trip pulling the Airstream. I would read and he would drive. Fortunately I don’t get car sick when reading.

After losing his wife, home, cars, and business, the protagonist (Alan) was planning to walk from Seattle Washington to Key West Florida, because it was the farthest he could walk on the map, and it was better than killing himself. He only made it as far as Spokane in the first book, so we decided to purchase the rest of the series and see what his journey was like on the rest of the walk. (We knew he would make it to Key West; we just didn’t know the story along the way.)

I’ve already posted a review of book one in the series, so this review is more focused on the remaining four books and the overall series. Each book could almost be read as a standalone as he does recap in each book (if you don’t mind ending on a cliffhanger). However, one cannot fully appreciate the entire series without reading them all.


We finished the series on a few other trips in the car, truck, and lying in bed when we didn’t feel like watching television. It was a good thing to do together, as we could read aloud and walk the journey as a couple, groan at the less than realistic parts, drool over Alan’s brand new camping gear, commiserate when he made stupid choices, reminisce about the places he described where we had already been, and contemplate visiting some of the places he mentioned in the book where we have never been. It’s a great way to pass the time, while spending quality time together.

There are some spoilers here, so if you plan to read the books, don’t read any further 🤪🥴. I thought I’d give you a quick review in case you were wondering how the series ends. Some critiques will be shared as well as things we really liked.

The author’s writing style is easy to read. Chapters are short and manageable. He does a good job of painting a picture of the activity in the book, sometimes in painful detail, but it helps you to “see” what Alan is experiencing in the moment. Also, he has many, many interesting lines that make you stop and reflect. I also liked that he drew a map at the beginning of each book, to show the reader his route and point out interesting places along the way.


The last book was another easy read on our quick trip to Florida between Christmas and New Years to see our friends. We finished the series together on the road and we met our goal of completing the series before the year ended. The stories found throughout the series were heartwarming, while not always realistic. For example, a young mom named Analise with two children invited him (a stranger) to come over for dinner, intimating that her husband would be joining them shortly. When it later became evident that she didn’t have a husband, we felt it was much too bold for her to have done that, for her own safety as well as the safety of her children. Either she was very naïve, desperate, or they are much more trusting of strangers in the small rural town he was walking through.

Overall it was an entertaining series with cliffhangers at the end of each book, nudging us to keep reading. However, we felt it could have all been put into one long novel, or two at most, with fewer lengthy monologues and details about which road he took and what kind of mundane food he ate. (We tired of reading about Cliff bars and Pop-Tarts.)

Unrealistically, there were way too many stories that had a religious twist, when in the real world not everyone you meet is into God or part of some freaky cult group. The retired pastor and his wife who bought the bed and breakfast where he had previously stayed seemed like an odd choice of characters. I truly wish people were more open about their faith as they are in the books, but it seemed forced throughout the series. Also, several references seemed anachronistic for a man in his 30s. A reference to Zsa Zsa Gabor changing husbands 🙄? We understood because of our age, but young adults might wonder who in the world Alan is talking about. Ms. Gabor died a year after his last book was published at the age of 99.

Some stories were very strange, like the cult leader in book four who preyed on his hunger, swayed him to come to the compound to eat, and locked him in the building from which he had to escape. They believed aliens were our god and all the cult members followed one leader. Alan tried saving a woman who was being “punished” by the cult by helping her escape, but she went back to the cult in the middle of the night. He regretted leaving her side, as he thought she truly wanted out. That whole story seemed to come out of left-field, and we wondered if the author was just looking for a filler to entertain. I suppose one could find a hidden message, e.g. the wiles of Satan and how he tempts us when we are weak, but the whole thing was very bizarre. Alan was looking over his shoulder for a while after that encounter, and we had a bad feeling as well.  

I read the author’s background and he comes from the LDS (Mormon) tradition, so we wondered if he was sending some type of message about the church at times. Perhaps he was subtly warning people not to get involved with a group that has been labeled as a cult by mainstream Christianity. Nowhere could we find whether he is still active in the LDS church, but we know it is a hard one to leave. He does live in Utah with his family, so he is likely still a member. The religious theme of the series seemed closer to a dismissal of religions, and Alan himself didn’t seem to have a strong religious belief. Yet religion and talk about God was found throughout the series. It seemed out of character, while tugging at the main character. It was difficult to get a sense of who the character Alan really is as it pertains to his own personal faith.


There were a lot more stories than actual walking throughout the series, which made the journey interesting and provided lots of fodder. But there was also enough walk (3,000+ miles) to enjoy the scenery. Alan was met with people and circumstances delaying his walk several times; for example, being mugged, recovering from serious injuries, having a brain tumor (benign), surgery, more recovery, and caring for his dying father. Alan’s walk was delayed by almost 200 pages at the start of book four while staying in Pasadena with his father; however, the lessons he learned while caring for his dad are noteworthy. He grew to appreciate his father more than ever before. He never knew the sacrifices his father had made on his behalf. His dad had written a family history, which gave Alan insight into his grandparents, parents, and his own life growing up as a child. It made me want to write such a history for my own children.


One long part of his journey confronted Alan’s need to extend grace and forgiveness to other individuals. There are some great quotes in the third book which primarily deals with this concept. For example, “we chain ourselves to what we do not forgive.”

Alan’s business partner had stolen his company, which lead him down one path of bitterness. The Holocaust survivor Leszek, who found him passed out on the side of the road, was instrumental in helping him see the value of forgiveness. Alan wrote, “Leszek has taken me into his home to care for me. Would I have done the same for him? I’m ashamed to answer.” We thought it a bit unrealistic that he would run into a Polish, Jewish man in South Dakota, but we tended to overlook these kinds of conflicting details and just read the message. After that encounter (and a lot of introspection) Alan penned Leszek’s words, “It is not the ability to walk that pleases God, it is the desire to walk. The desire to do the right thing. The truest measure of a man is seen in the actions that follow.”

Also, McKale’s mother Pamela searched and found Alan. She showed up in book three. He dismissed her, but she followed (stalked) him for a lengthy part of his journey. Early in the series we learned that McKale and Alan were childhood friends and sweethearts. She was the girl next door — literally. Her mother had left her with an abusive father when she was young, and Alan never understood why. He held a disdain for her mother that is evident in the following book quote: “There are people such as Benedict Arnold or Adolf Hitler, whose names become synonymous with evil and more adjective than proper noun. For me, ‘Pamela’ is such a name.”

Pamela could not keep up with him. She didn’t have a backpack or proper footwear, was not drinking water or eating, but she was persistent in finding ways to locate him on his journey. Multiple times she had a driver drop her off on the road beside Alan. He kept walking. She became quite ill from trying, and finally passed out on the street where Alan had a decision to make: Go back and help her, or keep on going. Fortunately for her he did the right thing, the most unselfish thing to date. There was an interesting plot twist when he finally decided to hear what she wanted to say. And yes, he did choose to forgive her. He wrote, “To forgive is to unlock the cage of another’s folly to set ourselves free.”

“As we walk our individual life journeys, we pick up resentments and hurts, which attach themselves to our souls like burrs clinging to a hiker’s socks. These stowaways may seem insignificant at first, but, over time, if we do not occasionally stop and shake them free, the accumulation becomes a burden to our souls.”

Book 3, Chapter 9

Alan had a few potential love interests along the way, none of them sexual, which was a bit unrealistic in our view (the closest he came to having sex was with a young single mom Analise who shared his bed and invited him to make love to her, but he rejected her offer because he couldn’t imagine giving himself in that way to anyone but his wife McKale). While he remained pure in his commitment to his deceased wife, he shared hotel rooms, homes, beds, and even his tent and sleeping bag with various women. Perhaps the author’s attempt to keep it PG played into this decision. As a Christian I appreciated the purity, but it seemed unrealistic for a man in his 30s.

“People aren’t wired to be alone. Even in the stressful population of prison, solitary confinement is still considered a cruel punishment. “

Book 2, Chapter 13

Alan finally started moving past McKale’s death as he discovered the second love of his life. Until the very end, the reader was left wondering who it would be? The young mom, or the other two more prominent characters Nicole or Falene? It wasn’t Analise. She was only present in the one story, never to show up again.

One possible love option was Nicole. He knew her as “Angel” at first. He fixed her flat tire on the highway, and then she nursed him back to health after his mugging in Spokane. They lived together for several months while he was recovering (in another purely platonic relationship). Interestingly, while he was recovering at her place in the first half of book 2, he says, “My father came. No matter what he said, his search for me spoke louder.” She helped him deal with his feelings toward his father, and he helped her get through her depression by watching her bucket list of movies together and sharing life together. There was a lot of healing that took place physically, emotionally, and relationally, one of life’s many lessons.

In English we have one word for love. I wish we had different words like we see in other languages, as it would make our communication about this emotion much clearer. Alan was very grateful for Nicole’s compassion. He loved her, and her love for him grew stronger each day. But he loved her more like a sister. When they eventually kissed in the final book, after she had pursued him the entire series, she realized at that moment she wasn’t in love with him but loved him in the same way he loved her. She loved him like a brother. Alan and Nicole remained good friends throughout the series, and they stay connected. Admittedly, the love triangle was resolved a little less messy than I’ve read in other novels. (She ended up with the doctor who was treating his father.)

So that leaves Falene. She was introduced in the first book. She was his assistant at the advertising agency which he owned. When he lost his business and took off walking, she was the only one who stood by his side. She helped him by organizing his stuff, helping him fund his walk through the sale of his things. It took him five books and a trip across the country to realize she was the one for him. He wanted to reach out to her but she had moved to New York and changed her contact details so he could not find her. He hired a private investigator and found her phone number, but he didn’t call her right away. He finally called her after his father died. He asked her to come to the funeral where she told him she was engaged to be married.

From the time she met him she was in love, but he was married to McKale so she had never pursued it. Even after McKale died, she didn’t think she was good enough for him, even though she was a beautiful model. She had several abusive ex-boyfriends, and believed she would always be the “girl behind the bleachers,” never good enough for someone as kind and loving as Alan. She agreed to help him on his walk so she could stay connected. Eventually she broke off her engagement because she had always been in love with Alan.

Alan and Falene finally got together when he was sitting on the sandy beach at Key West and he heard her voice come up behind him. I wasn’t surprised for her to be there honestly, but my reaction caught me off guard. There was a continual question of “will she/won’t she” so it could have possibly gone either way. I admit I was a bit teary when they finally got together 🥲🥲. I thought she would be the one, because he alluded to this in the beginning of the series when he said he never thought he would be married to a model, but the journey to get there was heartwarming.


At the end of his journey, Alan took an inventory of all the people who had helped him on the walk and influenced his life in some fashion. He was grateful for everyone he met, and each circumstance, even the challenging ones. Also, Alan helped several people along the way, like Kailamai, the Samoan runaway teenager who was just about to be raped by a gang (again, a bit unrealistic, but not entirely implausible). He pulled out his gun gifted to him by his dad after the mugging, and saved her life. The two of them walked together for several days, weeks even. He connected her to Nicole, who had by now inherited an apartment complex and a house. Nicole became a mentor to the young girl who became a successful student in college. 

He wrote about Kailamai in book 2. “It’s difficult to believe that someone with so many trials could harbor such hope, as there are those with so much advantage who harbor such hopelessness.” She embodies a teen one would like to help. She loved stupid dad jokes, had a positive attitude, and her character made me laugh as I’m also a bit weird.

Kailamai comes back in the end and meets Alan in Key West with Nicole. The two of them were there to welcome when he finished his walk. In the restaurant they read a sign that made me laugh, and then go hmmmmm, “I dream of a day when a chicken can cross the road without having its motives questioned.” So many people questioned Alan’s motives. How often do we question another’s journey in life, and the choices they make? Take a step, and don’t worry about what others think. It’s your walk!


One thing I liked about the series was the spirit of adventure, and reading about different parts of the country where we have personally been. The author got most of it right, as he did take a road trip with his daughter to research the road his character Alan would travel. A few times my husband and I looked at each other and said, “nah…there’s no way he did that in one day.” Some of the stories were adapted from the author’s interviews with a holocaust survivor, hitchhiker, and others who he met on that road trip, which did make it feel more authentic at times.

I was also inspired by the analogy to our own “walk.” Everyone travels a journey in life. Everyone. Everything and everyone we encounter shape who we are.  The good, the bad, the pretty, the ugly. Even the health scares. I know I am a better person because of the ladies in my book club as well as others I have met along the way.

Sorry this is so long, but it is a five book series, so you can cut me some slack 😂🤣😂. I hope you enjoyed reading my review of The Walk series. Let me know what you think in the comments below! We would probably rate the series about an 8.


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New Scan Results

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Today is chemo day, so I’ll take a few minutes to write an update. Tomorrow we are leaving for Natchitoches Louisiana for an Airstream Rally at the Christmas Festival of Lights.

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I’m on an annual schedule for echocardiograms, mammograms, and MRIs of the brain (is that all??🫤🤔. Every three months — or sometimes a little longer — I also get the following scans. CT of the chest, abdomen and pelvis, and whole body bone scan. It takes about a half day, as they access my port, inject me with the nuclear medicine and then I have to wait two hours for the bone scan (which takes 30 minutes by itself). While I’m waiting for nukes to penetrate my body, I drink the contrast and get the CT scan over with. After it’s all done, they de-access my port. I usually need a nap after all that. 🥱🥱😴

I had my usual scans on November 22, 2023. It took a little while to get the results due to Thanksgiving. Added to that my annual mammogram (left side only). Nothing to worry about, but here are the brief impressions.

CT: “There are new indeterminate less than 5 mm pulmonary nodules. This this can be evaluated with follow-up imaging. There are stable bone metastasis.”

I have several spots in my bones that show up in the scans. Most likely it is degenerative. I do have back pain, but doesn’t everybody at my age??

Bone Scan: “1. Probably stable multifocal bone metastases. 2. Slightly more prominent activity in the lower thoracic spine is favored to be degenerative rather than metastatic, recommend close attention on follow-up studies.”

Mammogram: “There is no mammographic evidence of malignancy. Follow-up mammogram in 1 year is recommended.”

I have a cold, and coughing up phlegm. I believe those are the “nodules” on my lungs. I guess we’ll see in a few months when we do the update, but I bet they will be gone by then.

All in all, still stable! Thanks again for all your prayers.


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Book Review – The Secret History

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We ordered all these books while we were on the road in October. I was so happy when they arrived at the KOA safe and sound! The top four are the rest of The Walk series, in sequential order. The bottom one, The Secret History, is for our December book club meeting. I wanted to get an early start, as it is a doozy. I finished the book a few days after our November meeting!

The Secret History by Donna Tartt is an intriguing murder mystery novel. I was captivated after reading the prologue, which tells you that someone nicknamed Bunny will be murdered, and Richard (the character telling the story in first person point of view) was at least partly responsible for his death. Wikipedia calls this an “inverted detective story” also known as a “howcatchem.”

It’s not very often I start a book and have trouble putting it down, but this one was just such a book. Psychologically thrilling and intriguing as well. I was thankful the book is a work of fiction, but the story did seem plausible.

I started reading it in October, as I had finished our November club book quickly, and went on to read this heftier novel. It has over 550 pages, and small print at that. I finished it about a week ago, just after our November meeting.

I think this book could be made into a movie, although there are a few scenes I wish the author would have deleted. Those scenes did show you how depraved this group could be. The plot was quite involved.

Also, there is a lot of alcohol and drug use in this book. It is a college scene, after all, but are all college students that bad? I went to a small Christian liberal arts college for my undergraduate degree, so was probably a bit more sheltered. The worse thing I remember happening was the panty raid when all my underwear went missing. They were found, á mon grand et total embarras (to my complete and utter embarrassment), strung up in a public place. I’m pretty sure I know who did that. 😂😂

I thought the setting as well as the plot of this book were both very interesting. The plot had several twists and turns. You don’t even experience Bunny’s death until half-way through, as the entire book to that point is building the characters and providing a foundation for how this could possibly happen. At one point you could nearly be convinced that he has to die! From there you see how his death affects the other players, as they are waiting to see how the police and FBI are going to handle the case.

I thought I had it all figured out, but then the book deviated and meandered around corners I didn’t know existed. A flurry of emotions kept popping up, but mostly frustration at the stupidity (yes, stupid geniuses), and all the poor choices made throughout the book. I just wanted to slap some of the characters. Come on, don’t do THAT! Maybe it is a product of their age, but they had no foresight into possible consequences for their actions until much later. Nearly all of the characters go through a mental health crisis in the second half of the book, as they one by one begin to experience the repercussions of their actions. There’s a lot to be said about thinking ahead.


The main characters are six college students at an elite liberal arts college called Hampden, located in Vermont (I fact-checked to see if it really exists. While Hampden College is fictitious, Tartt attended Bennington College between 1982-1986, and patterned her book after this school). The six students are all part of a very small, prestigious clique of what I would consider genius level intelligent students of the classics, who are also learning to speak in multiple languages including ancient Greek. They have one professor. I looked up The Secret History on Wikipedia, which you could do if you don’t mind spoilers. Apparently this book, published in 1992, helped popularize “the growth of the dark academia literary sub-genre.” (I learned a new thing today.)

Several times I was forced to pull out my dictionary to check definitions, as well as my translator to look up the Greek, Latin, and French which the students used to communicate between themselves in public settings. I think it helps that the author actually attended a similar school, and probably had some training in the classics. Since I didn’t, I wouldn’t really know if the things they described could be for real, but it could be. I had to skim over some of the philosophical discussions, as it got pretty deep and a bit over my head. Their professor is a bit far-fetched. Who gets an entire building endowed to them, so they can teach just five students? Yeah, right.

I had to learn the characters, which were so many it confused me at first. To help with this, I made associations. Basically, I assigned famous people to each of the main characters based on the author’s descriptions, and how I viewed them.


A young Johnny Depp was who I pictured as Henry, if you imagine him to be a few inches taller wearing an expensive English suit, round glasses, and sporting a mysterious façade. Henry seemed capable of talking anyone into anything. He was rich and used his money as a means of manipulation and control. He started to remind me of a cult leader by the end of the book. I think Johnny Depp could really bring this character to life.

Gru from the Despicable Me animated series immediately came to mind for Francis, but since he doesn’t have any hair and is a cartoon character after all, I looked online for red-headed actors. When I saw this picture of Benedict Cumberbatch my mind said, “yes, that’s it!” He’s a natural ginger, believe it or not.

Christina Ricca sans her gothic persona fits nicely for Camilla, who is a twin to Charles; they are two of the six. Charles reminds me of Rami Malek (below) who incidentally studied Greek, and is an identical twin himself. This is something else I just learned! He would need to lighten his hair to a dark blonde, but I could see these two as a pair of twins in the story.

Rami Malek | American actor | Britannica
Celebrities Who Went to Boarding School

I think Bunny could be played by Owen Wilson, as he is a bit more comical. Owen would make a good Bunny, as he is the jokester in the group, and he knows how to make people laugh. I see that with Owen. Bunny can get serious when he needs to, though, and eventually his discontent with the rest of the clique is what leads to his demise.

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Emma Chambers (left) or perhaps moreso Heather Matarazzo (Lilly in the Princess Diaries below) is who I pictured for Judy Poovey, the somewhat absent-minded neighbor who doesn’t enter the picture until a few (long) chapters in.

Heather Matarazzo as Lily Moscovitz in Princess Diaries | Matarazzo ...
A headshot of Eddie Redmayne at the 2016 San Diego Comic-Con International.

Richard was telling the story, and I imagine he would look like Eddie Redmayne since he grew up wearing freckles, with intentionally messy hair. He was not rich, so anything fancy came from years of hard work and savings. I found this picture of Redmayne on the left, which reminds me of Richard in the beginning of the story, while the one below would come later as he seems a bit disturbed by something he has just done.

Lastly, we can’t forget one of the premier characters, the one who started the school of Classics, and has a substantial influence over his very select group of students, Julian. Donald Sutherland is who I picture when I think of Julian. He is an extremely intelligent faculty, knowing several languages and works of philosophy as well as other classic literature. He can be endearing toward his students, while at the same time aloof and uninvolved. One might think he instigated the murder of Bunny, or at least encouraged the activities that lead to his death. But he doesn’t take accountability and removes himself from any connection. He is an interesting character, of which I could never fully resolve.

Okay, I’m showing my age. Most of these would not likely pass as a 20-something aged college student, so we’d have to get some much younger actors to play their roles. But it helped this old bird keep them straight! Anyway, you get the idea. If you’ve read the book, who would you cast as these characters?

I won’t tell you how Bunny died, or whodunnit or how they did it, or why, (although you will learn in the brief Prologue that Richard was an accessory and Henry was the instigator. You’ll also know how he died), but I will say if there is one moral to the story, it could be summed up in the following.


Bad Company Corrupts Good Character.

1 Corinthians 15:33

That’s all I have to say about that.


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Book Review – The Walk

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We read this entire book in one day, as we were traveling with the Airstream from New Carlisle OH to Franklin TN. Well, I read and Tim listened. It kept us company along the path and we finished right when we pulled into a hotel (after deciding not to stay at the campground we had booked). We liked The Walk so much we bought the whole series, for other trips. We actually read the second one on another long day. Two down, three to go. This review is on the first book in the series.

The Walk, by Richard Paul Evan, while it was a simple and easy read, captivated our imagination. It begged us to keep turning pages as we read. In some pages it could be a little cheesy, but at the same time it was heartwarming. We liked the main character, Alan, who has decided to fill his brand new backpack and walk from Seattle Washington to Key West Florida (because it was the furthest designation) after losing everything of value to him. He is an ad guy, and he was gifted the highest quality camping gear for doing their campaign. We were a little jealous of his gear. For some, the “coincidences” might seem unbelievable, but to a believer they could be acts of the Holy Spirit. We love adventure, and since we have been to the area where he was walking in this book, it was easy to “see” the cities he passed through.

It was a little awkward and disjointed how the author decided to write the story. At the beginning of each (short) chapter, there is a quote from Alan’s diary. Then he proceeds to tell the story; however, it is unclear at first whether the author is telling the story or if it is the character Alan’s travel journal. It is written in first person point of view, and it is Alan’s story, and we eventually got used to his writing style.

He only makes it to Spokane Washington in this book, and we felt like the author could have written the whole story into one book, rather than dividing it into a series of five. We were curious to read about the rest of the journey, so we did purchase the whole series. It’s the first time we have had anything shipped to our campsite, so this was kind of a trial run, but we had a lot of road left to travel so we took the risk. It worked out just fine. We were staying in a KOA in Little Rock for a few days. Even though we thought it could have been a single novel, The Walk is an easy read and in some ways it’s gratifying to know you can read the whole novel in a day.

We rated it 8.5 out of 10.


Not everyone in my book club liked it. I think the Scriptures contained within might have put some people off (the author is Mormon), or they didn’t think the story was believable, so a few people rated it lower. Overall our group liked the book, however; and we had some deeper discussions than our typical book club. For example, he meets a man with no arms who is looking for a book with all the answers. We had a lot of deep thoughts about whether we would like to have “all the answers.” Great discussion. For that reason I felt like it was a book worth reading. Here’s what my book club had to say about it, courtesy of our leader.

“Ten of us gathered at Canopy to discuss our November book The Walk by Richard Paul Evans.  It was definitely an easy read but there were a lot of differing opinions of the book.  Some people didn’t believe Alan’s story to be real.  Some of us thought the journal entry in each chapter was written by Alan but the chapter was written by the author which was confusing at first.  Several felt a connection to Alan in his journaling and his journey with grief and loss.   We all agreed that we would like an answer book and answers to why things happen to us.  As a group of survivors and caregivers, we agreed that going through our journey changes your perception and how you treat people.  Our overall rating is 7.0.”

Our December 13th book is The Secret History by Donna Tart.  I have already finished this one as I started it after we finished The Walk. I’ll give you my review after our December meeting.


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Reload

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Things you might hear while waiting for MDACC nurses to call your name for chemo… (Old cowboy wearing boots and hat, on his phone with a stereotypical Texas drawl):

“I have a .22 and I was wondering if you have a night vision and scope, and can you put it on there?” 😂😂

Long chemo day. One bag down, one to go. Whenever I go more than three (Trastuzumab) or six (Pertuzumab) weeks without treatment, we have to reload. That means one bag is an hour instead of thirty minutes and the second bag is ninety minutes instead of thirty. It’s been a while since I had to reload, so I kinda forgot how long it was. The infusion time is in addition to accessing the port, flushing, heparin and de-accessing the port, with a prayer that we get good blood return or additional processes have to take place. My appointment was scheduled for 12:30. I’m still here at 3:13, and just started on the ninety minute bag.

Before lunch I also saw my oncologist and his nurse, who were particularly chatty today, about books, family stuff, Netflix series and they were eager to hear about our Airstream trip. And of course we discussed medical updates, time for scans, yada yada. Honestly, I enjoy seeing them. It’s like visiting with old friends every time I go in. Today is the first time I have seen their faces without masks for over three years. (They took them off inside the room.) That was an especially nice change of pace!

Before the doc was the blood draw, which took a while to get in. This first visit to the building came with an interesting surprise as well. Funny how much can change in just a few weeks; we were greeted by large, green construction fences all along the north(?) wall. They are expanding their handicapped parking next to the building. They should have done that all along. Apparently the patients were complaining about having to walk too far from the current handicapped parking. I’m happy. More spaces for me as well.

As if that isn’t enough, we got up early this morning to take our son to the airport and then Tim went to the dermatologist (he needs another biopsy) while I sat in Panera Bread and read my book and ate breakfast. We decided to drive together, which Tim might be regretting now that he has decided to sit here in the room with me. Usually he drops me off and picks me up, a habit we never changed after the pandemic.

❤️❤️ He decided to sit with me. ❤️❤️

This evening, I’m taking two of my grandkids to dinner while Tim will be in a church meeting. We will wrap up the day saying hello to our overnight guests, who are staying at our house while we all go to the Texas General Assembly meetings this weekend.

Whew. 🥴

Funny how you can have a whole week without much to do, and then multiple things seem to all converge on the same day. Has that ever happened to you, or is it just me? That’s the way of life sometimes. Keeps us on our toes, for sure. I’m just grateful to the good Lord for giving me the energy to do it all, tenacity to keep going, and a passion for enjoying life.


Might be time for a nap. I do have my pillow and blanket while getting infused, after all. 🤪🤩😁🥴


He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.”

Isaiah 40:29; Psalm 28:7 (NIV)

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Home again!

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After nearly two months on the road and 8100 miles later, we are home again. Sometimes it’s hard to remember where home is, as muscle memory sends my hand to the wrong place for the trash can and my mind imagines the restroom is on the other side of the room when I wake up in the middle of the night to use it. In some ways I didn’t sleep as well, and in other ways I slept harder than normal, waking up a bit groggy. It may take a couple of days to get back into our home routine.

We got home yesterday, then spent the evening with our son and his family, celebrating his and his daughter’s birthdays with a special “Texas Roadhouse” dinner prepared by Bree and Bryan. We brought the cake. It was a great day.

Happy Birthday to Hannah (6) and Bryan (32). A West Texas Roadhouse dinner, prepared by Bryan and Bree.

Our washer broke just before our big trip, so this morning was spent at the laundromat. We will be looking for another washer later today.

Tim picked up our numerous packages from the mailbox, mostly large boxes from the Pampered Chef party I hosted for my 60th birthday in September. Our mailbox owner asked if we could come and pick them up, as they were taking up too much space 😂😂. I did really well at the party! I earned a large shopping spree, ending up with several small appliances and some baking tools. I am so appreciative to all who made a purchase so I could get these fabulous birthday gifts!

Look at all those birthday gifts! What a haul. I can’t wait to try them all out.

Every time we travel, it seems our trip gets changed by a few days and locations. Robert Burns got this one right. Change is to be expected when you are on the road for nearly two months (or plan to be). If you follow me on FaceBook, you may have heard about our spaghetti sauce surprise, also known as the paradoxical pasta panacea, the frolicking food fiasco, and disorderly dirty dancing. Day two of our trip met us with a huge mess when we opened the door and discovered the pantry latch had faulted, allowing our spaghetti jar and several of its canned good comrades to jump out of the door, releasing the lid on the jar (the jar did not break, surprisingly enough), followed by several cans rolling back and forth inside the trailer, carrying the sauce with them. Yeah, it was a MESS. We were still finding spaghetti sauce two months later on the ceiling and other places you can’t imagine.

We got it cleaned up the best we could, and it is a lighter color, but red doesn’t mix well with white floors. Airstream agreed it was a warranty issue due to the pantry latch failing. This required us to take another trip back to Jackson Center Ohio, skipping a portion of our trip. I was surprised they agreed to fix it, as it is a very expensive repair requiring them to remove everything from the rig, replace the floor, and then put everything back in. We scheduled that for February of next year, as it will take about three weeks to repair.

Here’s what our before and after trip looked like. At least the first half didn’t change by much! Virginia Beach is saved in our plans for some other time. It’s always a little frustrating when we have to cancel reservations and try to find new ones, but it worked out alright.

Original Plan (clockwise)
Actual trip (clockwise)

“the best laid plans of mice and men often go awry”

From a Scots poem by Robert BurnsTo a Mouse.

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Book Review – The Vanishing Half

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This has been an epic autumn. The color is amazing in the northern part of America (including Canada). We are still traveling, and have been on the road since the last day of August (see my last blog for more on the trip). We crossed the Ohio border earlier today.

Our journey did shift a little, when we discovered we needed to take our Airstream to the Mothership to have service validate our floor stains are a warranty issue. If you aren’t following me on FaceBook, you may have missed the Spaghetti Sauce Surprise incident. Basically, our pantry had a faulty latch, which came loose. A jar of spaghetti sauce, as well as a number of canned goods, came out of the pantry. The lid popped off the jar (fortunately it didn’t break), and the cans had fun rolling back and forth throughout the rig, carrying the sauce with them. It was quite an unfortunate surprise when we opened the door at our next stop.

We tried many ways to clean it, and while it is lighter, there are permanent stains that have not come up in spite of all our multiple attempts. Our next course of action was to talk with the service manager in Jackson Center, who identified it as a warranty issue. So, we reached out to the Warranty department at Airstream, since our rig is only a few months old. That’s where we are heading today.


Now for that Book Review. My book club read The Vanishing Half by Britt Bennett for our October meeting. I’m trying to keep up with the books even though I’m not going to be there, and I also send in a review each month. I will be there for the November meeting, and I look forward to it. I miss the in-person dialogue.

This is the first book I didn’t finish, in over a year. It started out promising, and I enjoyed reading the first 90-100 pages or so. The story was interesting, with the town of Mallard outside of New Orleans being something I have heard about but didn’t know much information about it. Basically, the black folks there try to “pass” as white, and they are light-skinned and easily passable. That part was intriguing. However, the author started introducing trans and drag queen characters in the second act. And it seemed to me like the author wanted her readers to believe that these relationships are not only normal, but easier to manage than one might experience in real life. She seemed to be comparing the passing from black to white with the passing to another sexual identity, but it is not a good comparison in my opinion.

I didn’t read the whole book, so I can’t fully talk about it intelligently, but I don’t recommend it. ( I did read a full summary of the book on spark notes, and it seems like the book didn’t get any better from there.) If I were rating the book based on the first 100 pages, I would give it a 2 or 3.

I took it with me every time we stopped at a cafe, park, or drove down the road during the month. I couldn’t get past the first 100 pages.

It seems like others in the group didn’t like this book either. Here’s the group review from our wonderful leader.

Seven of us gathered this afternoon to discuss The Vanishing Half by Britt Bennett.  We all agreed that the book is all about identity and contrasts. That the book touched on a lot of topics and was a great read for discussion.  All of us had a hard time with the back and forth timelines but we all continued to read on because we wanted to know what happened to Stella.  We found the contrasts always were black and white, Desiree and Stella; Jude and Kennedy; white people vs black people; Desiree who was poor and Stella who was well off.  In our discussion, R. and K. described how skin color does vary in the African Americans and how being “Brighter” is something that is desired in dating, marrying and their offspring.  We also talked about how each of us has hidden an aspect of our identity.  

We rated the book 7.3.


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2023 Fall/Birthday Airstream Tour

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For the past month we have been traveling around the country in our 2023 Airstream Globetrotter 27′ Travel Trailer. We set out on August 31st, and are still on the road as of this writing. We journeyed through Oklahoma, Kansas, Nebraska, Iowa, Minnesota, and then we crossed over into Canada near Grand Portage. We traveled east through Canada for a few days, then crossed back into the United States at Port Huron. After spending a few days in Michigan, we attended the 60th Swiss Festival Airstream National Rally in Sugarcreek Ohio. That was definitely a highlight as we were nestled right in the center of Amish country, camping beside an elk farm for over a week.

After the Rally, we went through Pennsylvania and into New York, where we are currently camping. We are staying just outside of Lake Placid, where the Olympic trials are held. It’s fall, and the trees have been peacocking throughout the past several weeks of travel. The weather has been magical this past week.

It’s been quite a journey. We have had our share of challenges, as well as beautiful days and experiences seeing wildlife, waterfalls, quaint little villages, horses and buggies, lakes, streams, and mountains beneath sunshine, fog, rain, clouds, stars, and a super moon. We have eaten some amazing food. We have stepped into four of the Great Lakes. We celebrated our birthdays, and I enjoyed purchasing some terrific Pampered Chef items from the shopping spree I earned after my 60th birthday party.

We have been shopping, washed our clothes, done the dishes, worked a bit, and completed every day activities we would be doing if we were back home. Every day life in the camper is better than therapy.

When I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer almost 7 years ago, we decided to do everything we could while I was still able. Experience nature. Draw closer to each other and strengthen our relationship with the Lord. We thought it might be a short-term adventure. By the grace of God the days turned into weeks, months, and even years. My energy has sustained me, and I am living proof that not everyone dies within a few months from MBC.

I recognize this is not everyone’s story (I have lost several friends), yet we must all come to the point of trusting God regardless of the outcome. I am giving God all the glory for longevity of life He has given me. Every day I wake up. For the ability to do this, even with the chemo and ongoing treatment. He has gifted me with an amazing team of doctors who, with the right cocktail of treatment, have kept me alive since 2016. My body is stable, and I have not experienced progression for quite some time. (I was first diagnosed with breast cancer in 2012, and after chemo, surgery, radiation, and reconstruction I was deemed “Cancer Free.”)

So we travel. We enjoy life. We explore this wonderful country in which we live. We immerse ourselves into nature. We take long walks. When we are home we enjoy our grandchildren. When we travel in the right direction we enjoy our other grandchildren. Life goes on, and I am grateful to be alive!


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 “It is good to be alive.

It is nice to see the light from the sun.”

Ecclesiastes 11:7, ETRV

Book Review – Project Hail Mary

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Today I’m reviewing the book Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir. We read it in my book club. It’s the first sci-fi book we have read since I joined the club, so it was a nice change of pace (although some of our club members didn’t like it for that reason). Spoiler Alerts!

Reading my book during lunch, while Tim is interviewing a candidate for one his church clients.

I enjoyed this book. It was easy to get into, and it captured my attention from the beginning. The plot was so creative, with the idea of alien life as small as an amoeba, as well as all the challenges experienced along the journey. 

I loved Rocky. If a book has an alien, it’s nice to have one that isn’t the traditional green men. He had a sense of humor which made me laugh out loud several times. Comic relief was well done. I can’t imagine how an entire species can be so technologically advanced without any eyesight. I thought that was a bit of a stretch. I was trying to imagine what he might look like, so I look forward to seeing the movie that’s supposed to come out next year, and see how they imagine him. The difference in their atmosphere versus Earth was very interesting as well. 

I enjoyed the interjection of the backstory as Grace’s memory was coming back. How he went from a coward to one courageous dude. 

Several times in the book I predicted what was coming next. The what if’s… what if Taumoeba get into the fuel holder? And it happened. What if it happens to Rocky? Which of course it did. I did not predict, however, that Ryland would choose to stay on Erid in the end. It makes sense, though, as his one true friend lives there. I wanted to know what happened to earth, all those years later, so not knowing was a bit of a disappointment. Coming back after all that time had lapsed could have been interesting, but I understood why the author chose the ending he did.

I was glad they saved both planets. Whew, we can live another day. 

Also, what about Stratt? She was a very interesting character. I can’t imagine the world giving one person on Earth so much power. And the others who found a way to use the alien Astrophage to fuel the ship. Again, brilliant creativity. Our world unified to conquer a common threat…that’s a nice idea. Unity is certainly a nice idea. I wish our planet was more unified than it is.

I would have liked an answer to the question, How did Grace’s crew die?” We know how Rocky’s crew died, which is interesting in itself. Why not his? After all, he is the main character.

The drawing of the Hail Mary and his extensive description makes you feel like it could actually exist; however, the science talk was a bit much for me. I was impressed with the author’s knowledge about it all, though. I would probably read it again.

I rated it an 8.5. 


Here’s what my book club had to say about it.

“Seven of us gathered to discuss Project Hail Mary by Andrew Weir this afternoon.  Several of us who do not like Sci-Fi were shocked at how much they liked the book.  Several did not care for all the science detail and skipped it or got bored with it.  But we all loved the friendship of Ryland and Rocky.  We all described what we thought Rocky, Ryland and also Stratt looked like while reading the book.  Pat shared with us how Rocky sounded on the audio book.  We had several good laughs regarding the 2 scientists and how they freely explained they were having sexual intercourse and how often.  Stratt bossing everyone around and getting everything she wants.  How Ryland is drugged to go on the mission.  How Rocky ate?  YUK!!!  And wondered how they will and if they’ll show it in the movie.  Rocky having Ryland watch him sleep.  Our discussion was a lot of fun with this book.  We appreciated how Ryland was so humble and yet brilliant.  We all agreed that it was a good ending and he would never go back to Earth.  Besides us seven, 2 other remotely rated the book and it was rated 8.9.”


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Baby Olivia Update and Grandkids!

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There was a period in my life, many years ago, when I didn’t think I could ever be a grandmother. I’m not sure why, but I had this very strange feeling that I would either never have grandchildren, or not live long enough to see them born. Given that history, I am very blessed to have seven grandchildren. I’ve lived long enough, and both of our children have children of their own. It’s a wonderful thing to be called “Nana.”

I realized I never updated my blog on Baby Olivia. She was born over two months early, and they projected her discharge date to be her due date, which is also my birthday (September 9th). She was born on June 30. I already blogged about it, if you want to go back and read.

I am so happy to report Olivia not only exceeded all of our expectations, she met and exceeded the milestones they set for her in the NICU. ❤️❤️ She ended up getting discharged early. I got to watch her and her siblings for a couple of days while mommy was recovering from her tubal surgery. It was easier than I thought it would be, but let me just say that watching three children is definitely for the young. And not just the young at heart 😂😂.

It’s hard to believe she’s almost four months old. One might expect her to be behind, but she is actually ahead of schedule. 🤩🤩 She’s already an overachiever. She rolled over from back to front at 3 months 2 days. She is a little miracle, and we are so happy she is doing so well.

We are still traveling on our Airstream trip, but when we get home I can’t wait to hold her and her siblings again. Happy Grandparents Day!

Holding Baby Olivia. Mikayla loves to look at the camera and make loud noises 😂🤪😂🤪. Olivia doesn’t seem to mind.

Jaxson is smack in the middle of two girls. Good thing he has Daddy! They are super close. He’s enjoying his banana before he takes a nap.

Hannah and Alison on the last day I was helping out. They are helping Mommy make tea. Mikayla wants to help. She loves mimicking her big sisters!

Those are Bryan’s five children. Elizabeth has two. I’ll share some pictures of them after our trip is over. What do your grandchildren call you? Leave a comment below. If you are asked to sign in, you only have to do this once. I promise I’ll never share your email address. It’s just to make sure you are a real human.


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